November 2011
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The question’s i’ve been getting way too much lately is why i’m still single and why i don’t have a boyfriend and it’s just getting too me. i hate nosy people, especially when it’s my friends. from my parents friends i expect it. “wow, you’re so pretty you must be beating them off with a stick! so haw many guys are you dating right now?” Ummmm, none. But then i have the idiots that are supposedly...
October 2011
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i hate you.
i don’t like you. i really don’t like you. my crush on you had absolutely nothing to do with you. you were just there at the right place and at the right time. if i had met another boy earlier i would have been into him. if you had acted like you cared i would have gotten over you faster. but now i really hate you. you’re always paranoid that people are testing you , when really...
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I am in physical pain right now. The guy that likes me, who is amazing, I can’t speak to too much because I’m afraid of leading him on. The guy I have an insane inexplicable attraction to I can’t speak to so that I don’t look clingy, insane, and emotional. The girl I adore is busy with training and competing all day. The girl I trust the most and tell everything to, I...
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the phone call that started it all.
the problems all began from a phone call. a friend, and i use that term loosely, called me on saturday. this in itself is abnormal since we barely talk. and for a good reason too, months ago i was crushing on him. at first it seemed he was crushing on me too but he’s just a douchebag like that and plays with girls. sadly for me, and i consider myself a sensible and logical person, i...
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what a crappy day. (week, month and year)
today is so horrible that i don’t even feel anything. if yesterday i was in my bathroom in hysterics crying my eyes out today is even worse. i feel numb and i just want to skip ahead in time. i don’t even have a time to skip to because there is nothing i’m looking forward to in the future. Christmas break is going to be hell. school is numbing. maybe next semester if it’s...
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what a motherfucking douchebag. i am literally...
this is really soft because what i want right now is to make him dead with my mind kjh bvhgghnbhjghbgjhghngbhghfhgvgfghjhgyfgdfggjgtj
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I hate the situation I'm in.
I am once again stuck between two guy separated by my indecisiveness. I have no idea even how to pick.
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“Everything in the world is beautiful, but Man only recognizes beauty if he sees...”
– Vladimir Nabokov (via misswallflower)
“my shoes are the one thing that i don’t tolerate critisism about. i only...”
August 2011
8 posts
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This time.
Damn, it’s happening again. My mind slowly relinquishes any conscious control. I can’t stop myself from doing things I know I’ll regret. I can’t even decide if I like him yet, but the pure possibility is driving me crazy. I promised not to fall for a guy that isn’t falling for me. I was so sure that I am strong enough to decide. Fuck :( Why doesn’t anything...
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You've got to be kidding me.
I’ve never considered myself an irrational person but as of lately, I think I’ve gotten dumber. In fact, what I used to think as a pro about myself is in fact a con. I’m no better than those stupid, mindless girls on mtv or wherever whining about her boy problems. He’s hot. I want him. (He doesn’t like me). Bullshit. I can’t believe I keep on getting interested...
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Whore
If there’s one thing that really gets under my skin about others it’s double standards. Why do these exists? Why can a guy fuck every girl he sees and be a hero? If I was horny and decided to sleep with a random guy, I couldn’t! Not because of lack of interest from said guy, but because I’d be labeled a whore. How does this even make sense? In order for that guy to be a...
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My head's about to blow.
Goddammit! A trashy singer is coming to sing here and her music is the exact shit that will lift me out of this mood but I have neither the money nor the person to go see her. Pretty ironic considering the thing preventing me from cheering up is exactly what has me in this funk. People are stupid. I’m a bitch. This is a horrible mix. I want to just crawl into a hole and stay there until...
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I miss you (i miss your smile)
One of the thing that makes me the saddest is feeling like I have no friends. Even though in my most conscious thoughts i realize how incredibly untrue that is, sometimes there’s still a hole. I want that sister-like friend that’s there for me always. Even the girl that I’m closest to at the moment doesn’t fit the bill. The worst part is that it’s only different...
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(Money Money Money) must be funny.. in a rich...
Here’s a another thing wrong with a ten’s life, (among all the super amazing stuff of course) money. It’s the time when we finally realize that contrary to popular belief money does not grow on trees. Except of course for the lucky bastards that shower in it daily. Sadly, not only does a job become necessary but the reality of the difficulty dawns on some as well. Before summer...
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Can anybody find me? (somebody to love)
It’s been that time lately when dating isn’t abnormal anymore. Guys and girls finally started to do it and I feel as if I’m still in grade three. I should probably be swooning over the hottest guy in my grade, luckily for me he’s not that great and I couldn’t care less. However I still have my own daydreams. Sadly I have the shittiest radar for the good guys....
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Are you there God? It's me.
There’s something strange about the internet. This incredibly easy way to talk and share with others is so damn addicting. Especially for a girl like me. I recently realized exactly what I am. The so called scarlet letter that suits me the best; attention whore. Too bad I’m virtually an unknown at my school. Obviously it’s nothing like the movies where the mean girls make my...
